Seeking my way

When Frustration Strikes from Nowhere Are you stuck in a state of constant irritability? Does it hit you out of nowhere, turning your day sour? Despite your best efforts, do you still find yourself unable to shake off this feeling? Perhaps you're struggling to get through the day without letting your bitterness affect others. One key factor you might be overlooking, and one that could be fueling your frustration, is the things you consistently do that you don’t want to do. Take a moment to sit back, ask yourself what those things are, and listen carefully when the answers come. Let’s start with something simple, like cooking. Maybe you despise it, yet you constantly blame yourself for not being a good mother, for being a bad cook, or for procrastinating. You might even criticize yourself for being irresponsible towards your household, family, health, or relationships. But have you ever stopped to consider that not everything is for everybody? By failing to accept this, you might be

Let’s talk about family. I apologize. I don’t think I will be able to do that. B ut why? It's strange to say I don’t even know why. It's not like I haven't questioned this to myself for years, but every time I failed to find the answer. It’s like my mind goes completely blank when I think of the word "family". It feels as if someone inside me doesn’t want to talk about it. Maybe that part is scared. Maybe it doesn’t have the slightest clue. Maybe it’s just confused. There are a lot of maybes, making it difficult to understand it all. But what if there's nothing to be scared of? I'm not in a position to decide what's scary and what isn't. Living with trauma paralyzes you within. It feels like an internal shutdown, a complete freeze, and that's what makes me terrified and family-phobic. When the protectors become the rivals, life becomes a dirty game, and you can only survive if you know how to play along. Maybe hiding from reality became the onl